"Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed."
James 5:16
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My first fifth step was scary. I felt as if I were a failure....I yelled at my children when I was overwhelmed (God bless their sweet hearts), I slammed cabinet doors when I was angry at my husband for not seeing that I needed help, I was dishonest...lying to cover up my fears...or to cover the effects of my husband's drinking on my life. I was embarrassed to have been out-of-control with my food for so many precious years, etc, etc, etc.
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It was amazing, though, when I told my sponsor all my nitty gritty. She didn't even blink an eye, but instead she identified with my pain...and gave me hope of a new way to live in the days to come.
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I left her home, ripped up my fourth step writing in a thousand pieces and threw in in the dumpster outside her apartment. I can still remember the freedom and the joy in seeing those pages flying through the air.
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That was the beginning stages of a life-long surrender process...
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Confession is good for the soul.
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I used to think that talking to God was enough, but there is something really healing about doing the steps as they are laid out.
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