Because of my controlling personality, grounded in many deep-rooted fears, I have a history of struggling with letting go of my need to try to handle any situation. Even though I KNOW that I cannot control the outcome, I try. God knows that I want to let Him, but it's in my nature to do absolutely everything in my power, and then I turn to Him and say, "Okay, it's Your turn. I give up!"
I write my need/request on a piece of paper and put it in my "God Can" (Some people use a "God box"...) When I am willing to take this action step, it means that I am admitting that God Can do what I cannot do. It's up to Him, and I am letting Him. At this point, it is no longer an option for me to manipulate, obsess or struggle. I let go and let God.
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Hi Pam,
I've heard of the idea of a God Can before, but I have never made one myself. I think we may make one this weekend as a family project.
I have something that I need to put in a God Can and leave there right now. I am struggling with the decision I made to step out of ministry last weekend. I know that it is the right thing for me and for my family. I know that the Lord called me to it. The Lord has already risen someone up to take my teen group until February and the pastor and his daughter have stepped in to lead worship. What I am struggling with is guilt that I am not able to carry my load and fear that these things will become a burden for them, especially where the pastor is already preparing a message each week. He has assured me that he is enjoying doing it with his daughter and the young man teaching the teens is loving that.
So what's my problem? I am seeing that I am stepping in to God's position. It's not my job to worry about the folks that He is rising up. He can take care of them. I just need to keep my eyes on the things He has placed "on my plate," Let Go and Let God. It's also not my job to question what He calls me to. When He says to pick something up, I pick it up. When He says to put something down, I need to just lay it down and walk away.
:o) Christine
Boy, Christine, I hear you... It sounds like we are two peas in a pod. I have an overdeveloped sense of responsibility, which means that I want to control everything and everyone, as if it's my job, and I feel guilty when I step down or say that I cannot do something. Sometimes I hear God tell me to get off a dead horse, which is also hard for me.
Thanks for reading and identifying.
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