Goals of Recovery

I wanted to talk a little about my hopes and dreams, which were later identified as "my goals" in recovery.

When I first walked into the 12-step halls for compulsive overeaters, I thought that thin was the goal. I seemed to believe that if I were thin, my life would be perfect. Little did I know that I not only had a food problem, but a life problem.

When I got abstinent, I joined a serious step study (called an AWOL--A way of life), and I went to a counseller, too. One of the first assignments (from my counseller) was to write a list of all the things that I would hope and wish people might say about me if I had died...and they were gathering around me at my memorial service.

I immediately blurted out, "SHE WAS THIN!"... My counseller was not amused!

But going into my heart of hearts, I found my true goals... I wanted to be considered a kind and loving woman...a good wife and mother...an excellent daycare provider. I wanted to feel loved and respected.

At the time, I wasn't any of those things!

That was over twenty years ago.......... Today, through staying abstinent from sugar, flour and wheat on a weighed and measured food plan one day at a time, and working the 12-steps as a way of life, I have been blessed with all these things and then some!!!

Ephesians 3:20 comes to mind.... I have amazingly more than I could have ever dared to dream, wish or imagine! To God be the glory! He has changed what I could not change for myself.